WRECKED

“It is not how to suppress or avoid the emotion that will work but rather accepting it, embrace it and not letting it define you”

Mark Manson

I have been on the NoFap journey for quite a while. The reason I decided to do this was the great benefits shared by many successful fapstronauts: increasing confidence, attractive aura, optimal performance in other fields, better sex exp. I myself was a heavy addict who would fap everyday for a year straight, may be twice or thrice a day if possible. Followed by game addiction, this everyday watching porn seemed a perfect combination for me to fully enjoy my life, or that was what I used to believe. Then game was over, I quitted game for the sheer negativity brought by it. Game was out, so was PMO. Then I got a girlfriend who was very hot and talented, the kind of person I would have never dreamt to have. We did have sexual moments, which were great and made me realize that this was what I should be chasing for, not the instant-gratifying benefit of PMO. Sex is real while PMO is not. During our relationship, I did PMO very little since my desire was always satiated by my gf. Then we broke up and I could no longer satiate my sexual desire. It was when P came back as an old friend, inviting, seducing me to PMO. Indeed, I was completely hooked with it. Recently, I have decided to stop PMO and to commit to change the bad habits from my life because I want to show to my gf that leaving me was her worst choice. I want to be confident, handsome, intellectual, socially attractive. Then I begin to read books that I never had a chance during being a bf. I hit the gym everyday, followed by a good diet for lean bulking. Things seem promising as I progress day by day. But I can not just escape from porn, especially when it comes to the urges. Urges make my performance poor, my eyes sore. I can not seem to work without my dick and brain reminding me to watch P or have a look at some sexy girl pics. Now it has been 8 days in NoFap and I feel like I can no longer go further. I feel like I have to relapse while knowing that relapsing will need to many relapses later on. What can I do now ? What should I do now when literally EVERYTHING is not working to me ?

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